I see you mumbling, catatonic, fearless
Wounds too deep to fix, scowling at the weight of the sun
On how much it shines too bright, and too deep, baring all your scars
How many times have you placed your value in numbers
From the pounds youโve lost and gained,
To silently counting the wall clock’s digits till this day ends
How many times have you stared into nowhere
Through sleepless intervals from night to dusk
How many unsent letters have you written, to those people you loved wishing they knew how your mind tiptoes to broken bridges and fast lanes
How many times have you said can we leave this place and saying, “leave me alone” but wishing that people stayed
I wished you stopped counting or maybe if you did, count the moles in your body, those tiny insignificant holes
The bones that keep you intact as you lunge into personal attacks that doesnโt ease the pain
Count the times youโve said yes to waking up in the mornings hungover from your sleepless thinking
Count the times youโve eaten, and eaten well
Count the breaths you take, 1-2-3 and more, hopefully more
I see you, shallow and deep
Sallow and spitfire mixed
Keep those wrists at bay, they hold you
Keep them warm, keep them safe
Save yourself, this one heart that feels everything too deeply
This one shell of a body that stings
Lead it to somewhere where it can swallow all the nightmares
I beg you, save yourself
I crave for that silent turbulent head of yours
Those heavy winds, endless loops of black holes intrigue me
Do not be afraid that your eyes leak on cue while the wind whistles
Save that sweet, quivering mouth
Too quiet, too loud
Endless stories just at the tip of your tongue
Scars too beautiful to be unseen
They make your anchor, they make you strong
Save that spirit because someone, somewhere longs for it to be well.
